I wish I had better self esteem and believing more in myself. I do a bit. but as the years have gone on I think my self esteem has been chipped away. for many reasons, overly critical parents, just life experiences and not feeling like I am living up to what I wish I could. maybe I am a pessimist., always wished I could have better self assurance. I tend to beat myself up and even feel self hatred at times. I let other people succeed in making me feel worthless. It is hard to ignore it when others are cruel. wish i could shrug them off. I know I should not let them get to me. but sometimes life can be awful hard. I am the first to say I wish i felt better about myself. not too much would not want to be arrogant{lol}UPDATE: four years later, still do not have great self esteem. probably never will. still wish i did not give a crap what others thought of me. sighs..........